Beautiful Star

This morning around 5am , i saw a beautiful star ... I dont mean to wake up so early but i cant sleep well and just thinking of taking some fresh air near the balcony.. and i found THE STAR. It was so beautiful, and it blinks... Heart felt so sweet in a sudden.. but when i tell my friends about this, Guess what they say..? " It was a Satelite instead of star." :S and i ALREADY made a wish for myself. :S ... Anyways, im making a wish to a Satelite.. hahahaha... but i hope my STAR heard my words.. and make my wish come true.. hehe.. :D

Today is the 8th days i work in GTower, Everything goes fine and smooth.. I feel happpy to work here.. All the colleagues are friendly and nice.. They taught me alot.. But the best thing is the employees' benefit.. hehe... Anyways, proud to be apart of Gtower..

I miss my baby...

Natalie

A lil Changes In My Life

It is 9th November 2010, it is my second day in Gtower Hotel. Everything goes smoothly so far and i just got back from Gleneagle Hospital .. but not to worry it just a normal body checkup. I have been wiating for like 3 hours in the hospital and it makes me feel so sleepy . It was packed with patients.. anyways, it was good.. :D

Back to my topic.. I feel proud of myself sometimes. There's something happen last week, i selft made a nutrition soup successfully and it was so delicious.. and i named it as Natalie's Soup.. :) Does anyone want to try some ? hehe.. XD


I think i should get back to work now, even though im new here , got nothing to do... hehe..

Update news coming soon..

take care my friends..

Love,
Nat

Leaving the "scary" place...

Time passes so fast.. It is already 26 months i have been working in this hotel. I am so happy to leave here because it doesn't make me feel happy working in this kind of environment. I've tried to get along with people but still...

Officially 20th of August 2010, i will be working in a new environment. New challenges, new people, new place... I hope i can do much more better than before.. Anyways, had a great future for me !!

i am happy with what i have right now.. Family and friends who is always be there for me when i need them... Tom Squisshh is always right beside me when i go to bed... :) feel so nice...

Happy day....
Counting down the days..... 11/8/2010 ...... 8 days to go........ 19/8/2010

*winkWink*


Love,
Natalie

What's wrong between you and me ?

Since yesterday, things went wrongly between you and me. I tried to follow what you want but it seems like you demand more.. When I asked you, you put the blame on me. It makes me feel so sad. What I can do is just holding my tears and smile at you it just because I care of you. I don't want things goes wrong.

I'm mentally tired.. Really tired.. I don't wish to give up but there's no encouragement for me to move on. If you think I can't fullfill your expectations , just say it out and let me go.. But you just torturing my mentality.

I don't know how far I can go for this.. I see no future...

:(


Lil Nat

Stupid.

Some people think that im stupid.. really stupid... I'm kind of upset about this .. it just, I admit that im really stupid and much slower than other people.. I'm useless by the way..
Most people said that im a girl with no brain.. .....

he think that im stupid.. clueless .. .and he seems like very annoyed with me

Kittens

I wish to have a kitten.. But it seems everyone around me disagree with it. Seldom people like cats. Even though my soulmates.. they freaking hate cats. :S
Cant you guys see this picture >>>>>>>>>> She is cute right... aww~ I feel like kissing and rubbing her tummy.. heheh...~

Guess what name should i give ? Gaga ? muahahah~ Tori ? Zsa Zsa? Dink ?? Pixie ? hahah... it is so fun... :P

I'm sure one day i will have one... !!!
:) heheh....



Natalie

Feeling of getting Tipsy..

I dont feel protected. ... You're not here when i need you.. I 've tried to ignore everything , but i cant. You're so selfish.. You said you want to be private... Have you ever think about me ? I tried to make decision... but you seems like you're not agree with it... It is my fault of being so soft - hearted. Everynight i wish you're beside me...but it seems like my best soulmate will spend most of the time with me... I miss you alot... i dont know where should i express my feelings.. i feel tired and pain... and seems like you're so enjoy your life... I'm not the right one for you , i can feel that...
IF you dont feel alright , you're not losing me by letting me know. Go ahead and say good bye , i will be alright. GO ahed and make me cry, i will be alright.. no drama and not for a show please...

:(

Tipsy Nat

The feeling of an Injection

I'm on MC today.. It just becuase i ate prawns yesterday... Now my body and arms feel so itchy........ ahhh~!!! I hate it...
There's a clinic somewhere near my condo, and this is my first time to get in there. You know what, i forgot to bring my ID card... T.T luckily the nurse proceed everything with my ID card... *weird*
Waited for an half and hour, it's my turn.. The doctor told me that i have to get an injection... @.@ *numb* ....... just go..... I'm not afraid of injection , it just ... I HATE it... !
Natalie looked like an ALIEN now.. red marks on my legs and arms. :S itchy somemore... why why why!!
I love SEAFOOD.............. T.T

Bad Rumors about me

I feel like crying now honestly... I got rumors about me.. but it seems like everyone believe it.. SOmeone that i expected who know about it will take care of me.. but.. it seems like im wrong... He is putting the blame on me.. It is not my fault to make things happen. i feel like crying badly.. I need help , i really need help... :(

It came back again... why...

All the while i thought i might get rid of this feelings.. But , it came back again. It is inside my mind. The feeling is pain. Every morning once i wake up the first thing i do is .. Sitting infront of the mirror and look at myself.. look at my face... It looks tired and at the same time i feel pain in my heart. Whats wrong with me again ? There's something .... there's really got something.. it just i dont know how to express myself.. I feel helpless and i dont know where to start from. What should i do... Talking to friends is a good way .. but it just, i dont feel like telling them. I dont feel like disturbing them.. They're busy enough.. Family ? impossible.. they will worry about me ...

The purpose im writing here.. i need your advise.. Nowadays , i had a really bad dream... This is the first time and i woke up.. My tears kept on rolling down...I cried. I know something will happen. I'm scared..
Sitting at the balcony, i think of my past. Everything changed. Now , i feel like im just living alone. I dont feel like sharing. I wish to be shared but... i feel insecure.

I felt sorry for what i did in my past. Sorry for hurting someone that i love... sincerely apologize... but im forced to do that. It just because of this, i cant forgive myself.. I feel guilty.. i feel pain.. i hate this feeling.. But it just like a reminder for me.. it haunted me for a long time.. ........
really scared.........

Chinese New Year

HmM~~ i dont think im able to have a long holiday for my CNY... Office need people.. :S
I wish to go back home, miss my parents so muchie...... :S and im the only one who gonna stay in the officeeeeee..... with my manager and the malay staffss... arrgghhh~! so unfair... huh!

2010

Happy New Year 2010 everyone.. !!

It is already 2010.. Should i change everything to new one? hahaha... jk..
Anyways, I will be using my new lovely leather diary, which is in Pink colour , made from Korea. :) Everything is in Korean words.. But, yeah.. I dont understand at all.. But at least i get new of them.. hahaha... Thanks for my lovely "friend" to send me this as my Christmas gift.